I see so much good to be done

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I cannot say that I desire death. I used to desire it, but now I see so much good to be done, so many souls without a shepherd, that what I most want is to do a little good and work a little for the salvation of those poor souls. Still, God loves them far more than I do and doesn't need me. May his will be done. There s nothing really wrong with me, but the summer wears me down. I get feverish spells sometimes, headaches, sleepless nights. Nothing that lasts and nothing severe. It will go away when the hot weather does, in five weeks. I'm leading my usual life, but getting less work done.